...what's so fun about computer games?

i really tried. yes, i honestly did. try what? try to understand the pull of computer games on the male species. ok, i know there is a small percentage of the female species who also enjoy pc games. but the majority of addiction is no doubt the males, from little boys to the never-grow-up men.

i really tried. i tried playing a game. i tried watching the guys play the games. i tried reading up about games review in intech. i tried listening in on discussions about the games. and the verdict? i'm still so clueless. and i'm like, huh? what's so interesting about staring at the pc, clicking on the mouse and destroying others?

maybe it's the violence in the games that attracts the xy chromosomes. i always suspect that the male species like destruction. building legos in order to destroy them. having toy car races that end with crashes. and now, games that annihilate the enemies.

i really did try. and i still don't understand.

so i guess those from venus will just let those from mars be.

...coffeeshops with tvs.

i had an interesting observation over lunch today. a people observation.

if the coffeeshop has a tv (or many tvs), you will notice that 90% of the people will take a seat facing the tv. it doesn't matter if they are actually watching the show or that they come in a group. their eyes will automatically wander to the tv. even when they are talking with their friends, time to time, their eyes will flicker towards the tv.

i doubt that many are really enjoying what's on the screen. i guess having the tv there gives them a sense of focus. for those who came alone, it is a form of distraction while waiting for the food or a pleasant entertainment to while away the time. for those who came in a group, it can become a topic of conversation or better still, save them from having to make a conversation.

lately, i have been thinking a lot of how it is to be living life on my own (since i will have to in one month's time). will i be one of those who will choose a coffeeshop that has a tv? will i take a seat facing the tv so that i look occupied, especially when i have to wait for the food? will i spend my time watching the idiot box there just to pass time? and courtesy of mr. kok's revelation, will people, when they look at me, think i'm the sticky kind of gal because i'm eating alone?

...letting the cat live minus a few lives.

i relish taking a few lives out of each curious kitty out there. it was so much fun. ;-)

it was not intentional. i wanted to tell out the news. but i just couldn't coz nothing was finalised yet at that time. on the other hand, i didn't really wanna tell out coz the surety of the happening seems to be still so far off. at least to me. more than 5 weeks to go.

the gutsy me says:
this is so exciting! i finally can explore many new possibilities.

the negative me says:
oh no, what if i can't adjust to the new lifestyle? what if loneliness sinks in deep?

oh, the civil war inside me is still raging.

people are giving me advices that i will give to others who are in this situation. i can't be logical to my own self. i try to. but emotions and logic don't seem to communicate well. it's happening a lot lately. the heart and the head belongs to one me but they are so different personality wise.

i need words of encouragement. i shall rephrase that. i am begging for words of assurance. can you give me some, kitty cats?

...breakfast in KL, lunch in Ipoh, dinner in Penang.

how i wish i get to experience the kind of high-flying life that jets me around the world in a single day. but the real me only gets to taste the eenie teeny weeny version of car-moving life around malaysia in a single day. something that no doubt countless people have done too. however, to my surprise, there are actually people who have not travelled around malaysia. stating a good example is my driver for the day. he actually had not been north of kl before this particular trip. not that he has been to many places down south or eastward either. so there are people who are not compelled to go around. of course, being me, i can't imagine not exploring places that i have not been. and being visit malaysia year 2007, heck, i encourage myself and all you malaysians out there to go wandering our very own shores.

specially to ebbs and ev, no guessing to why me having breakfast in kl. lunch in ipoh was to celebrate my friend's wedding in the form of a luncheon. dinner in penang, now that is something for you to ponder and loose one life. (evil laugh)

...gonna happen, something new.

wow, kwazy berry cannot believe that she already has 100 entries in this blog. kwazy berry has had 100 things to muse about. this is the 101 entry. this calls for a celebration! come on, bring out the champagne!!

and yes, kwazy berry gonna have something new happening in her life soon. kwazy berry is so berry excited!! berry berry nervous at the same time also. a new future ahead. this also calls for a celebration! come on, tune up the music!

kwazy berry do not want to reveal much now. until she is berry berry certain.

in the meantime, come live life to the fullest with kwazy berry.